Bottom

Tool - "Bottom"

Compassion is broken now.
My will is eroded now
Desire is broken now
and it makes me feel ugly.

I'm on my knees and burning.
My piss and moans are fuel
I set my head on fire.
And smell my soul is burning.

I'm broken, looking up to see the enemy.
And I have swallowed the poison you're feeding me
but I survive on the poison you're feeding me,
Leaving me, guilt fed, hatred fed, weakness fed
It makes me feel ugly

I'm on my knees and burning.
My piss and moans are fuel
I set my head on fire.
Deaden soul

Shit adds up
Shit adds up
Shit adds up
Shit adds up at the bottom.

If I let you,
You would make me destroy myself
In order to survive you,
I must first survive myself
I can sink no further
and I cannot forgive you.
There's no choice but to confront,
to engage you,
to erase you.

I've gone to great lengths
to expand my threshold of pain.
I will use my mistakes against you
there's no other choice.

I'm shameless now,
I'm nameless now,
I'm nothing now,
I'm no one now,

But my soul must be iron,
'Cause my fear is naked
I'm naked and fearless
and my fear is naked

NAKED

Dead inside
Dead inside
Dead inside
Dead inside

Nameless now,

Shameless now,

Nothing now,

No one now,



Shit, adds, up,
Shit, adds, up,
Shit, adds, up,
Shit, adds, up,

As you see me naked now,
Fearless now,
Naked now,
Fearless now,

Shit adds up
Shit adds up
Shit adds up


It leaves me dead inside,
Dead inside
Dead inside
Dead inside

Hatred keeps me alive

Cowardice keeps me alive

Weakness keeps me alive

Guilt keeps me alive

at the bottom.


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I've been working on and off of this piece since my comp died. But I think it took this long because I couldn't handle experiencing it. I made this to torture myself, to remember. I needed to feel what he did. Understanding was a poison that helped kill the controller. I felt my soul burning and screaming from guilt for so long. I appreciate the deep wounds from him.

Thank you for saving me. I'll always be sorry inside. No matter who I become. I'll make my amends to the dead.