It's amazing how life and your heart can plan together. I just had to follow what I felt inside, even if it didn't make sense. I realized I walked into a world that wasn't mine. I wasn't comfortable or safe. I did it out of love and respect. I was absorbed into it. He was besides me while I walked through it. Almost a blur to me but real. I realized they chose their anger. There was no peace because they didn't want it. I was there and now I'm not. It's ok if I'm the only one who feels this.

I'm truly sorry. I wasn't perfect but my love was. That's what really matters in the end.

I can see the one beside me, so clearly now. I have my own dream to enjoy. And it's so beautiful. You can enjoy your world and I will enjoy mine.

I was watching "Blood into Wine" the other day. I really enjoyed everything. There was something spiritual about it. Maynard talked about something that really touched me. It was about how his life path was changing. He said he enjoys performing his music but he couldn't forever scream. Those emotions have passed. I feel the same about things in my life. I've went through a horrible time once and I've healed. I've moved forward. It's the reason why I can't make the same art as before. I don't feel the same. And trying to repeat is almost poisoning. I have thoughts and dreams about the past but they fade. Where I'm at now is more real than anything. My heart is strong enough to face anything. It's strong enough to love again.